Ain’t Nothing But A Vibe
Ever feel like you’re out of place… like nobody’s really in your corner?
Welcome to Ain’t Nothing But a Vibe—where real conversations turn pain into power. I’m Blake Veney, and we’re breaking down struggles, setbacks, and the moments that shape who you become.
From one-on-one talks to group sessions, this is more than a podcast—it’s a space to grow, connect, and realize you’re not alone.
At the end of the day… it really is nothing but a vibe.
Ain’t Nothing But A Vibe
Past to Purpose: Real Conversations on Trauma, Growth & Truth
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In this episode, I sit down with a Jacob Tihanyi for a real, unfiltered conversation about life, experiences, and the things people don’t always talk about. We touch on difficult topics, including different forms of abuse and personal struggles, while focusing on growth, understanding, and moving forward.
This episode contains sensitive subject matter, so listener discretion is advised. At its core, this is about sharing real stories, asking honest questions, and having conversations that matter.
Hey, welcome to Ain't Nothing But a Vibe. This is your host, Blake Vini, and I'm here today with my best friend, one of my good homies right here, Jacob Tiryani. How you doing today, dog? Tell him how the vibe is, bro.
SPEAKER_02What's good, everybody? I'm feeling great tonight, bro. Do you know I'm off that moonshine? I'm chilling for real.
SPEAKER_00Off that moonshine. We country as hell.
SPEAKER_02Nah, I ain't no country shit.
SPEAKER_00No, it's not no real moonshine either. It's from the shit from the ABC, bro. It's not even a good shit.
SPEAKER_02Just for a little bit. I'm about to get locked in on some real shit. You write that country shit, bro. But hey, that country shit is fucked up. Any boys gonna have a drink, bro? I'm not here fucked up, though. I'm feeling great, bro. I'm feeling amazing.
SPEAKER_00So I'm about to say tell the people about yourself. Like, what all would you want the audience to know about you? Alright.
SPEAKER_02I'm feeling good, bro. My name is Jacob Tiani, bro. Don't get the last name messed up. I'm just uh, bro, I'm 21. I'm trying to get at life, bro. I grind every day. I make sure the hustle, I make sure my hustle is good. I make sure everything's taken care of. And it took me a while to get here, bro. I'm nothing but a grinder, and I'm nothing but a businessman.
SPEAKER_00That's all I am for real. Yeah, I know. I've seen you. I about to say, like, how I first met you. I about to say, you wanna tell him how I first met you?
SPEAKER_02Hey, we met off an Instagram post. I'm advertising my little business. He hit me up talking about he needs some of what I got, and I'm like, I bet. He hits me up, I'm like, let's lock in. He cool peoples, you know. I show up to everybody with an outlook. You could do whatever you want to me. As much as I can do whatever you want, as much as I could do whatever I want to use. So I pulled up though, and bro, he had a good vibe. Hence the podcast name. And I fucked with him, bro. I uh sat there and we kept building the building the friendship up. Next thing you know, we've been locked in since we we see each other about damn near every two weeks, bro. It was every day.
SPEAKER_00But life gets in the way, get in the way, a whole bunch of shit. I know. I mean, and me now, like now seeing you, I see yourself, you got a way better head on your shoulder. Because when I first met you, I'm like, God damn, this nigga wild as shit. Because like I was like, nah, I mean when I mean by wild, I'm not saying like anything bad, I'm just talking about mentality because he's had a crazy, like I thought I had a crazy ass light, bro. But like when we first really like started getting to know each other, I was just like, yo, like this nigga was through some shit. Yes, sir.
SPEAKER_02What's good? Nah, you're right, bro. I wasn't, I mean, I've always been a little wild, but every time you met me when I was like late 19, early 20s, yo. We've been rocking for about a year now. It's crazy how time can change. It's crazy how time can change you, to be honest. Like you said, I've had a crazy, crazy coming up. I said I can't say a rough coming up, as in most people that say they have a rough coming up, that means they don't like that shit. I kind of enjoyed it. As bad as it was, I still it made me who I am now. I wouldn't be right here where I'm at if it wasn't for my coming up.
SPEAKER_00And I had to learn that. And it that's one thing that I learned is that if you don't have the struggles in life, that stuff that happened to you that was bad. You're not gonna, you're not, yeah, exactly. You're not gonna be hip to what the fuck the world is, because the world ain't a good place half the time.
SPEAKER_02People asked it all. You can walk outside every day and think you're good, and one day something just click. The world is unpredictable. You are right, bro. You gotta say you gotta be real green to sit here and think that anything different for you, it don't matter how rich you are, or suburbs, hood, ghetto, it don't matter where the hell you're at. Life can switch at any second. You gotta be prepared to take care of yourself and make sure that you get through whatever the fuck it is that you need to get through.
SPEAKER_00You know what I mean? Mm-hmm. And like I said, like, what was that pivotal moment where you had like beyond this like life experience? It was just that one thing that made it click in your head that beyond just trying to get better, it was like, damn, why are these things happening to me? And how do I actually deal with it in a way where I don't become the things that I dealt with?
SPEAKER_02Check, bro. Um, when I turned 18, I went, alright, sir, this is like mid-life, mid-middle of my life, young teenager years. I turned 18. Next thing you know, I'm thinking everything's great. I'm thinking I'm gonna be perfect just because I'm 18, you know what I mean? So the number 18 defined my happiness for such a long time that I was gonna be free and I was gonna be able to do whatever the fuck I needed to do and wanted to do with no guidance. Not that I didn't want guidance, but the guidance I was receiving is not the right guidance. So I sat there and I I fucking I went into the mental hospital. It's a little hard for me to talk about, but my pivot in life was when I went into the mental hospital and voluntarily for the first time, and I realized that I needed help other than just talking to the homies or just hills or weed or anything like that. I was going through psychosis to the point where the people that abused me and my life got to my head so bad that when I turned into an adult, grown-ass man, you know, at 18, everybody tells you a grown-ass man. I realized fuck I could be like the people that abused me. So I sat there and I checked myself in, and I mean some people might not agree with it, but I found Jesus Christ. I found God right there. I was thinking crazy shit. I was in there for f for over a week. I was only supposed to be in there for two days, but they would not let me leave because of the issues I was having. I sat there and talked to God my second day, and we can get into it a little later, but I was in a residential if y'all know what that is. I realized that I need to go back to my roots after that second day. I need to stop worrying about me a little bit, step out of my own shoes and put myself into other people's shoes. God allowed me to put my own problems away for those few days and help others. And then I got out of that mental hospital and everything changed. I started praying. I started uh I started talking to God. And I don't read the Bible every night. I'm not saying I'm strict on this, I'm not gonna go to church every Sunday like I wish I could, but it's I bet you're down a different path. That's the main thing. It saved my life at that moment, bro. Like at 18, I thought everything was gonna be great. So when it wasn't, my brain didn't know how to react. I sat there and was just scared. And and everything took over. I didn't know how to control it. So it literally saved my life to the point where when I got out of there, the whole script changed. At that moment, I realized I need to walk in the glory of him and not just like not just in religion, but just better. I move better, I need to think smarter, I need to move harder, I need to grind, I need to become better than anybody in my past, any adult in my past.
SPEAKER_00Man, that's hard to even admit and ask for help. A lot of people are so stuck at a point where beyond is admitting help, like asking for help, it's the fact that even acknowledging they have a problem. Most people don't want to admit they have a problem. And I can see with with you beyond this acknowledging that you had that, that you got the proper help and showing that sometimes you can't handle things on your own. And that's a hard thing to that's a hard pill to swallow. It is like you can't self-medicate on certain things, like especially when it comes to abuse, like having real abuse, because real abuse is something that you can't just get over like that. It's not, it takes years beyond just like oh, going to therapy takes yourself actually making it where you're feeling safe. Because it's hard to feel safe after going through those things. But like for myself, like the things that like my yeah, it's it's hard, and also the fact that just being open about it, because like most people don't even want to admit they had shit happen to them, like because people are scared as like, oh, someone might think, Oh, damn, like I had this shit happen to me, and I'm less of a person, you're not less of a person, or something that you couldn't control when you were a child, you didn't have an option, it just something you had to dealt with, and you dealt with the best way you could.
SPEAKER_02Exactly. You couldn't never feel like it was your fault, or anything that happened as a child, like it happened for this reason or that. Only happened because you grew up around never feel like it was your fault or anything that happened as a child, like it happened for this reason or that. Only happened because you grew up around like poor people. Like with me, I mean, dude, I you said it's it's hard for like, yeah, you were correct, bro. Cause me speaking about it, it'll probably shock a lot of people. Like again, I'm a grown-ass man, open to talk about a lot of feelings, but therapy I you said therapy. Therapy did help me a lot, actually. Uh I God bless me that when I got when I got uh therapist, that every single one of them were good, bro. So therapy taught me that you you literally have to move on sometimes. Like not just forget about shit, but not get stuck, not get stuck, exactly. You get hemmed up on stuff for the rest of your life, bro. You damn near become that or worse. You can't do that. So I'm very open about and they taught me to be very open about my situation. Very not because it makes me not because I want to make people uncomfortable by talking about it, not that I want to feel sysyfied or pussy because I'm crying or talking about it to somebody that might not even give a shit. Well because they taught me that when you need to talk about something, it's the best to just let it out. Because if not, it's only gonna get taken.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, that shit will eat you alive, bro. That shit for me, like when I held my shit in, bro. Like, me not talking, it killed me, bro. I mean, beyond just like, oh, me feeling less of a person, it's just felt like I had no one in my corner because it's like no one knew to be in my corner in the first place. And I how will they know if you don't give them a heads up of what's going on?
SPEAKER_02Mm-hmm. You gotta communication is is key, bro. And I'm very blessed that I learned that at a young age, because in this generation it's very, very hard to find proper communication via friends, relationships, anything. But I'm never I'm I'm always open about things because again, you can't hold excuse me, you can't hold things in, but the moment you let things out as well, it all it just takes it away almost. Like not completely, but it takes that ten step pressure. So I mean, I sit here and I say right now that I I've been every form of abuse that you can think of, I've been through it, neglect, abandonment, starvation, fucking um sexual abuse, fucking molestation, physical abuse, mental abuse. But that isn't it isn't define you. Every single one of those things, like getting it out, taught me that it taught me how to survive for one in a poor way, but it it taught me how to be acceptable to the way the world actually is. We're talking about that. The world is different than a lot of people perceive, but when you have sunflowers and rainbows, yeah, having seen the world in rose-colored glasses, and the fact that some people haven't never experienced that.
SPEAKER_00Like I the fact I especially men, like no one as a man in today's society wants to admit they went through that kind of shit. I went through all constant abuse too, bro. It is embarrassing, bro. Me as a man, I was it's not a it took me it it's not like me. It took me years to even admit that I even had that shit even had to me at all, bro. Inside the fact that like it doesn't make you less of a man, bro. It don't makes you more of a man because you at the end of the day, bro, you got through it.
SPEAKER_02A lot of people don't get through it, they comb the monster.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, they turn into that shit, bro. And it leads, like, I think from the longest time, that led to why I treated people the way I did, because I got abused so bad that I fucking was an asshole, and I took it out on people instead of being like, hey, yo, these are the things that happened to me. I was violent for a long time. Yeah, me, like I was a violent person too. Like, I had anger issue. I still have anger issues. There's still always gonna be angry from it and shit. There's still gonna, it's like a form, bro. It actually not even like a form.
SPEAKER_02It's it's like we can get that, yeah, bro. You said it always will be like this.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, even if it's like it's not there, it's not happening too more. Like, you still don't you still feel the unease of every time? Yeah, that's all I'm saying.
SPEAKER_02At the end of the day, all I ever went through, like, but I didn't mean to erupt you. So what I was getting at was all I ever heard was, hey, do this. No, you motherfucker yelling at the top of their lungs. You you motherfucker, you better do this. Right? And I'm telling this screaming at the top of the lungs. I've came to realize in my adulthood, bro. I've been 18, I'm now 22 almost. I yell too fucking much. I do things that my past people have done that I hate so fucking much. It sticks to you, but the more like we were talking about the more that you let it go, and you sit there and talk about it and learn. Every time you do what you did, what happened to you in the past yourself, and you learn from it, like you can get better, you can be different. Like, this generation, all of our generation, bro, is about breaking cycles. The world is crazy. I we keep saying that the world is crazy. Y'all know what's going on. Y'all heard, y'all heard the fact that people are eating babies and we paying taxes, the fucking pedophiles.
SPEAKER_00Fucking up the game, it's some trifling ass niggas, bro.
SPEAKER_02Like, but that's the generation that raised us, exactly.
SPEAKER_00Bro, and I think too, here's the problem. It's the fact that they want to normalize going through this shit. That's the problem with people that have been abused. The people that are abusers, the we reason they keep on getting away with this, even if they get caught, even if they go to jail for the rest of the life, the reason why they keep on covering more people are still doing this shit.
SPEAKER_02Because everybody in the law is also doing this.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, that's right. That yeah, hell yeah. That part, you know, how the fuck it don't. No, I don't know. But the it's the fact that it's normalized. That's the problem. I want to give an example. They normally but like the one last note. The reason why they normalize it, the reason why the people that are abused don't speak up because they make it where it's okay or they make them so scared, even if that person, yeah, that's on that fear. Like for me, I was petrified for the fact of if I told anyone that would happen to me, I would have got the shit beat out of me, bro. Like, not no, like, oh, like at slight little ass. Well, I would like have blood, like nigga, I'll get fucked up, like for real. That was that's the kind of abuse I was going through. But beyond just like all right, I'm getting all these things happening to me and moving forward. How can beyond I'm just changing, how do I do these things better?
SPEAKER_02Yeah, you have to change your whole your whole mind cycle, dude. Like, once you get out of it, you then have to alter your whole life because all you knew was that before, you know what I mean? And we were getting that like people get away with the dude. I want to explain my situation. So my great grandfather molested me, but he didn't just molest me, he molested my my grandma. He m he raped her. Holy shit. He molested my my mom and raped her at a young age as well. And then my mom, God blessed her because he he she never had a female, and he is why. But guess that didn't stop, they don't stop them. Because at the end of the day, he turned to me. When I turned 13, it started with slight shit to where he said, Hey, come give me my towel. And I put my head down, you know. I don't want to see none of that junk, but I'm gonna be nice and give you his towel because he forgot it in the shower. You know, that's not unnormal with my my homie in the locker room and he forgot his towel. I'm gonna put my head down, turn that shit and give it to him, right? It ain't weird. We all we all guys, right? But I mean, I want to see your shit. No, fuck not. So the how it started was he sat there and all of a sudden one of the motherfuckers take me to get shoes, and during that he was like, you know, you can look at me, we're all guys. La la la. Anyway, he moved on to males so fast, he did not care. And it's the fact that he was able to move on, it already explains that he got away with the other two, my mom and my grandma, so he's on to me now, right? I finally talked. I finally fucking talked, and that motherfucker sat there and still got away with it. He paid over ten thousand dollars in lawyers to get away, and they dismissed the whole case after two other two other cases were already introduced, right? And he got away with it. That explains the justice system right there. How do you already have two accounts? And when there's another one brought up, you know, probability in math. You learn this in third grade, says if it happens two or more times, it's probably gonna happen again.
SPEAKER_00Exactly. And that's what I'm saying.
SPEAKER_02In that and he let it go.
SPEAKER_00But listen to me, bro.
SPEAKER_02He never got charged to this. Oh, my bad. Last thing to this day, he has not got charged. Do you think that it stopped him? Nope. All right, exactly, brother. He my mom just got out of prison because my mom has gone through the same shit I went through, but ten times worse. So she never got out of it. I again spoke up. She didn't. He's still while and he's 70, 80 with Parkinson's and cancer, ball cancer. That's how God works, ain't it? Yeah. We use things we use us things the wrong way. He's still trying to fuck my mom every day at 34 years old, she is.
SPEAKER_00That's terrible. That's awful.
SPEAKER_02I don't even like it is. She can defend herself now, but that exp that says that the loop has never ended. He just looped back around. I mean, she may not be four anymore. That was the first time he got her full bloom. I'm not talking about molestation, straight rate. And that was reported. The fact that people can get away with that shit blows my fucking mind. Lack of evidence. The fuck I make this story from. A book. No, I gave them full details, and they still never give a fuck. They the whole that whole sexual side of the world is too fucking is too much. Like the way everything's coming out is too much. And then the way the the way that generation also physically abused everybody is also crazy too. And I know a few people will relate to this. You ever sat there and asked, be asked to held the light? You know what I mean? Brother looking at the you're your uncle, your dad, whatever, looking at the engine, they need you to hold the light, and then you get smacked in the fucking face because you can't hold the light.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, that did that shit. My dad did that shit.
SPEAKER_02That's fucking wrong, bro. There's so many things that that generation fucked us up on, and those are the motherfuckers that are in office, those are the motherfuckers that raise the people that are below them. The world, the world makes no sense. And if you if you can get through that, it's amazing. If you can talk through that, if you can talk, if you can talk through the shit that you went through and get through that so you don't become like the motherfuckers that are in power of us now, you're automatically one. You automatically sat there and beat the cycle. Again, I think I said that earlier, but this generation is nothing about is it is everything about cycle breaking. We have to break generational cycles that made, like you said, all this weird shit, beating physical abuse, sexual being normal.
SPEAKER_00It's not normal. It's not, and that's why I'm saying you don't realize that until you get out of it. Because for me, like I because I told like my mom, my mom, I got told her about my shit. She ain't gonna fuck. Because that's what I'm saying, too. Cause she was also doing abuse to me, too. Like, bro, it was I had some crazy shit from like all like ever since I was a kid, bro. But the fact that like people knew about it, but no one gave a fuck. That's the thing that hurts people that get abused, is when you see when you ask for help and you don't get help. That's the thing. I was that was my situation. You at least got help when you told the right people. Me, hell no, they didn't give a fuck. They knew what I was like there, and that's what I'm saying. And that what led to me not getting help at all as a child. I had to get help on my own as a person, bro.
SPEAKER_02That happened, that happens more often than you think. Like you said, I got help, but I give that to God because the amount of stories that I've heard of foster care people not getting the help they need, or people like you that don't even get to make it to foster care because they get didn't get the proper help they needed. It's absolute blasphemy.
SPEAKER_00The actual the system is really fucked up, bro. It is. And I mean, and here's the thing too, is the fact that most people that go through these things, and you're around people that never been around, that's never been abused, that's never they had a good life. And you you're trying to fucking have a conversation with these niggas, and they have no clue, they had no clue what the fuck you've been through. They had no clue how you comprehend things or how you adjudge emotions or how you feel when someone disrespects you or any of that shit. We're on a whole different wavelength. It's not that like a way that we're like person. Someone, or there's anything wrong with us, we just have some real shit happen to us.
SPEAKER_02Maturity levels are a real thing in this generation. A lot of people don't know how to be mature. Maturity doesn't just mean doing adult things, maturing means knowing when to get mad, knowing when you actually need to make a scene. Being mature is knowing how to take care of yourself and others. Maturing is knowing that you need to take care of everybody around you, no matter who it is. You know what I mean? People don't mature nowadays, yo.
SPEAKER_00But also, too, here's something I learned with that. You can't take care of everybody. You can't save everybody, bro. And that's something I had to realize with in my case with my brother. Like, I like I love my brother to death, but like I know that I can't save him, bro. I my family can't save him, bro. They can't take care of him. He had to go get help. He finally got help and he's getting help. Yeah, I thank God for that. Cause like he needed that shit, bro. But you know what I'm saying? Some people really because he went through the same kind of shit. Like he he got really abused, bro. Like he and I the fact that he went through that and you went through that, or any uh anyone else's not beyond is oh, I'm sorry you went through that. Here's the thing that that here's the thing that most people don't realize. There's when you go through that kind of shit, no matter what someone says to you, so like how they comfort you, even though they you talk to them for days and hours and weeks about what you went through, it doesn't help. It's crazy. That's the fucked up part about it. When you go through these kind of things, sometimes you're gonna have to have some help that is professional help. I had to go get profession, I had to I got diagnosed with PDSD after I got hit by a attractor trailer. That shit was crazy, bro. Like that shit happened on 9-11. That was the craziest shit, bro.
SPEAKER_02Well, time, time in my opinion, is everything. So, in my opinion, I wake up every day and I look at so like like you said, it takes a lot of time to get over shit. But does it? I was abused for about 13 years of my life, right? From from one year old to 13, from one year old to 13, I was abused, right? So I'm 21, almost 22. That's not even a decade. I haven't been abused, and even when I got out of my abuse, I wasn't physically abused anymore. Thank God I wasn't sexually abused anymore, but I was still neglected in types of ways. I was still abandoned a lot. I went through like 15 different areas, yo. I didn't haven't stayed in a place longer than a year since 2018. We're in 2020. When you go through things like that, you gotta sit there, you gotta sit there and just move on. You know what I mean? You gotta sit there and just uh push through, no matter how much time it takes, because it will take time. You will never so right now, this is where I'm getting at, my bad. So where I'm getting at is I was 13 when shit ended, technically, my physical and all that extra bullshit, but I was still abused until I was 17, abandoned, all of that. I never had a permanent spot. So when I turned 17, right? That's when I finally stopped getting abused. When I I was 17 and I was in my own apartment, and I made the decision that I had free will, and I I walked out. I moved in with my girl, and I made it final that I was doing, but I wasn't I was still 17. So I was still unfortunate. So I've only had 18, 19, 20 fucking years of not having trauma. Think about that. So you need time. I haven't even you still have I still have so much in my life that was traumatized. I'm still getting over that. I can't rush myself. Neither can you, neither can anybody. You can't rush yourself to get over stuff when it was years. A weak situation, cool. Something happened today, get over it tomorrow. But years take everybody has to learn that that is the biggest thing. Take as much time as you need and just glow. Make sure that every situation you take is a learning situation and don't repeat cycles so you can sit there and grow. Because motherfuckers rush themselves and feel like they especially nowadays, nobody has contentness. Everybody feels like they need to be better than everybody else, and I think social media plays a big part. It makes everybody look good, but in reality, that dude that's flashing money on Instagram is broke.
SPEAKER_00I know I love money. I'm sorry, bro.
SPEAKER_02No, I'm not talking about money. I'm talking about the motherfucker that's sitting there posting, and he's posting like he has the life, he doesn't. Oh yeah. Instagram, Snapchat, social media, it the bitch throwing ass, it's actually the angle. She don't have a fat ass. She's flat as fuck. Like it makes people feel think about it. But it but Instagram make their ass look fat, right? That's true. Or Snapchat filters like that. Yeah, exactly. You gotta work those angles. Well, why would that's what that's life? That's people always working angles, dog. Working angles rather than working out the actual shit they need to. That's not just about your body, that's about anything in life.
SPEAKER_00Anything in life, yeah. People don't because most people are that most once they got what they need that satisfies them, they're con like you saying, they're content. They don't move. Contentness is good to a certain degree, but depends on what you're content with.
SPEAKER_02If you have gold, yeah. People be content with the wrong thing. Like, all right, for example, is like right now, I I don't have a house, but I have an apartment. I don't have a Lambo, but I got a Honda. I don't have a fucking Porsche, but I got a Malibu. You got something. I got something. People aren't content with that. They think, oh, I don't I have a Malibu, but I need a Porsche. Why are you getting mad, bro? At least you got a car with gas in it. Alright. People just be dumb, bro. No, and I think not dumb, but I'm grateful for what they have when they could have nothing. And I'm not talking about just African kids are starving. I'm talking about literally your neighbor might not have food in their fridge and you don't know it. Think about other people, bro. You're not.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, people don't see that's the thing. Like, people don't have empathy because people are beyond selfish. People don't think about anyone else except themselves. And we're both faulty of that too. Even with us having empathy, my like with me, I'm a very compassionate person. Like, I love people, I love like I feel for people more than myself. But even then, like with that being said, how me moving forward is that gonna serve me? How is it gonna serve others beyond these me being a people pleaser or me being someone that wait because that's the thing when you've been abused, you learn these things on how to survive, and that shit fucking once you're not getting abused anymore, that shit, those habits follow you, bro. And if you don't fix those habits, people are still gonna take advantage of you, bro. Even if they're not beating your ass by fucking doing shit to you, like like at like at all, they're still can make it where like how you have respect for yourself in relationships, how you communicate, which you're like if you're willing to say no, a lot of times people, especially if you've been like abuse, abuse, like the the shit you talking about. It takes a lot of people a long time to learn to say no. I learned that shit. That's crazy. That's a crazy shit to say at all. Most people are scared, or even like that that been through that shit, are scared too. I'm not saying that's a everyday basis, but you know what you're saying, you get what I'm saying, though. It's hard. It took me years to learn how to say you know, yeah, and actually set down boundaries, bro.
SPEAKER_02That's a skill, yeah. That's definitely a skill. I feel like overall, bro, the just growing up, regardless of how traumatized or untraumatized your life is, you have to grow up with that empathy and that sympathy. If you don't have both, and you you can't get too far. You gotta be able to step in other people's shoes, but also listen to other people. You feel me? But not let it like take control of you. Don't don't be making yourself sad because somebody else is sad. Just Be considerate of everybody. You have a bad day, someone else is having a bad day as well. I feel like a lot of adults though just well I again. I I made it to 21 now, almost 22, and I didn't think I was gonna make it that far. But I just grown up knowing that you have to be motivated, you have to stay positive, and you have to continue to not want to be what broke you. Don't sit there and and fuck yourself up with not being fast, and you're not here, you're not there, at least you're somewhere, at least you're better than this, you're better than that. You gotta take your time in life, you gotta make sure that you stay, you just stay consistent, bro. Like with what you want. I don't a lot of people don't know what the fuck they want, and that's okay. But you gotta find your goal in life to make sure that all the traumas you went through and everything doesn't overlap that. Find your will to live, bruh. A lot of people don't find that, and they live for nothing and they die without anything. You gotta find your will to live to sit there and just go for it. And so then when something fucked up happens when you're an adult, when you're a kid, you can fucking wallow and swell fucking wallow all you want, motherfucker. Cool, you're a kid, you gotta wake up at six to go to school. You're an adult when you're an adult, you can't do that.
SPEAKER_00No, you gotta get up and still pay your bills, and if guy like bills ain't gonna stop like when me, when I was going through my shit, like even as an adult, that here's the thing that I would fuck me up. Because as an adult, it didn't even get better. It wasn't like I had a situation where, like, oh, as soon as I become an adult, it got better. No, it got worse as an adult. No, it got worse for me as an adult. Like, as soon as I turned 18, I was homeless, nigga. I was out on the street trying to fight a pastor, nigga. I I try to fight a pastor. Do you understand how ignorant that shit is? It wasn't like me, oh, like specifically because he was a pastor, it was just because that motherfucker was trying to get me awesome when I was beaten up. And then I try to like because I that that's a whole different story, but like that shit, that's but not he trying to touch me and then like I caught my hand back, and then he was just like, Do you believe in God? I'm like, Yes, sir, I believe in God, but I better send this man to hell. I told that nigga that shit straight up, bro. Like, I'm not even trying to be on no other buttons. Like, that's my whole day. No day. It took me being in these situations where I can't because me, once I had my abuse happen as a child, I kept on going with it, bro. It just fed my shit. It was like a fire, bro. Like everything one by one, bro. He getting hit by a tractor trailer, bro. I had eight niggas shot outside my house. Like one by one, boom, boom, boom, boom. I had fucked my foot up, boom, bro. Fucking go. My mother died, boom. This fucking everything, nigga. Like, and this shit don't stop. But me now, it's I'm finally at a point where I'm like, like, damn, I'm at peace. It's weird, bro. Like, it's not because I don't think stuff is never gonna happen to me again, but I know, but I'm like, damn, I've survived all this shit, I'm still here, nigga. That's crazy, bro.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, you know that you can get through it. If you can get through what you got through already, you can get through anything. I feel that I definitely can't say I'm at peace. Shit. Life, like I said, life can change in an instant. Mine done changed real quick, right? Just the past few days. But bro, once you grow up and you you realize that what you went through don't define you, and you can fucking sit there and grow out of it and have fun and live a loving, happy life. You you do a hell of a lot better. I know that obviously you do a lot better, but I'm talking like there's a reason why serial killers are a thing. There's a reason why a lot of bad people exist, it's because they didn't get out of it. You have to get out of it. You can't become the enemy. If you come from something bad, you're only gonna become worse if you if you turn into that. Again, I grew up fucking, you're gonna go to jail. You're gonna be just like your mother. You're gonna be just like everybody else. No, the fuck I'm not. I never I never ever agree with that. And I'm at peace enough to know that I'm gonna do great one day. I don't have my life figured out. Well, you're not going to, bro. I still like to. Nah, nobody does. But I don't even mean like figured out. I mean like I don't have it to the point where I'm happy yet. Maybe that's because of uh the situation at the moment, like I said. Or I I just feel like I can do better. And it's always a good thing. But I thought uh at 18 I was just gonna automatically do better. So I'm trying to cope with the fact that there's a lot I actually need to know and learn. I'm not I don't know everything.
SPEAKER_00And that's good, bro. You know one thing I'm proud of you you saying that, bro. Cause like, you know, it took me I'm 24, bro. It took me until now to learn that when I was your age, nigga. I didn't give a fuck. I mean, yes, I still was somewhat like trying to act like I was like hip this shit, but like no, like I thought I was better than people. I thought that like, alright, bro, I went for all this shit. Like I was in I was fun, like nigga, you like that's all I'm saying. Like you are at a way better point at 21 than I was, bro. Like I was and I was ignorant as fuck. I was way, way like you're doing way better than a lot of people, you know, age round now. But but beyond that, bro, like how you moving forward, what do you want to do? What are your next goals? So you're talking about goals. What are your actual goals, bro?
SPEAKER_02I'm uh I like the green medicine. I want to eventually develop more skills into that where I can I can uh get into the industry more, whether it's medical side or recreational side. Um sort of my big hobbies. That really is my main goal. Y'all, y'all motherfuckers want to know how I got through it. And this ain't good advice unless you're 21 or plus, because wink wink, I didn't start till I was 31 backwards. Alright. I smoke weed and I love it. Weed great, bro. I wake up every day with the trauma that I went through, and I don't have to fucking take a pill.
SPEAKER_00That was my thing when I was younger, but like that's when you know what I was doing. I was shit, I was popping those perks, man. I was lit. I did Zans. I was lit, I did that shit still, bro. Like, that was when I was when I was like, from when I no, you know what that was crazy? I didn't I started doing shit like not to get high, but just like or actually, you know, you know the real reason why I try to actually fucking start doing pills? Well, I try to kill myself. That was the first time I actually tried to kill like do pills.
SPEAKER_02And then the second time was to get I started with I started with weed, but I started with weed because I always lied. Instead I smoked weed as a kid. I ain't gonna cop. I don't know why. I just did I sat there and told everybody when I was in like elementary school, I smoked good green. I didn't, but eventually that led to me like fulfilling it to be true.
SPEAKER_00I'm about to say you don't get good green. I mean motherfuckers, my first weed. You know what I'm saying? I was crazy.
SPEAKER_02But I've always been a confer weed with perfect.
SPEAKER_00No, my no, you wouldn't know it's crazy. No, but my first shit. I I did pills before I even did weed. That was some weird shit. I did alcohol. Yeah, no, no, no. So like I did drinking.
SPEAKER_02My grandma died. I drank Hennessy and Fireball mixed together in about eighth grade back in Miss Halinga's class. Miss Halinga, shout out you. You was my favorite deep.
SPEAKER_00Nah, but no, for me, it was like I so when I had my first weed, it was the fact that I had a blank. I had my homie get roll me a blunt. It was like a fucking I gave him like 10.
SPEAKER_02Shout out to the homies that used to roll the blunts before.
SPEAKER_00But now what I saw. This shit was fucking terrible, bruh. This nigga, it was some fucking booth. And nigga, I don't even know how to smoke. I was scared of smoking. So you know what? No, no, no. No, no, no, listen, listen. You know what I did the first time I smoked? I smoked it out of a light bulb. I made a bong piece out of yeah, bro. I looked up on YouTube on how to do a fucking light bulb. So I got the fucking told you how to do that. Yeah, I shouldn't have done an apple, but nigga, I was smoking out a fucking light bulb, bro. And it was like I was heating it like a it was like a fuck, I swear to god, bro.
SPEAKER_02I was heating a light bulb, I was like a crazy that's why we was illegal for so long.
SPEAKER_00No, that's why we like you. No, yeah, that's like some cracking. I was smoking it, and then my I was smoking it with my mom in the house too. So like this was like I was like sixth grade. No, no, no, seventh, sixth, seventh grade, bro. So I was like, uh shit. I was getting yeah, and then when I was in school, bro, like nigga was like I was doing other shit too, because I was hanging out with all the bad kids, bro. Them niggas, they were fucking selling vapes and a whole bunch of other shit. And like I had my one nigga named Chad, bro. He was the one nigga that showed me how to trap.
SPEAKER_02What vapes was they selling?
SPEAKER_00Well, it was the old school vapes, the tank vapes. Like, nigga, this is a shit. Like, nothing. Niggas had a whole oh, this is some like old school. Yeah, we did all kinds of dip and all that shit, nigga. This some country shit.
SPEAKER_02I know that dip, bro.
SPEAKER_00No, we had a chip tobacco. We had like a way, we had a whole bunch of shit, but like, no, bro. Like me and him, like, he really showed me how to do it. Yeah, this is back when I was in middle school too. And like this nigga, he was like one of my first like homies and shit that died, bro. This nigga died in the house fire, bro. Dang, yeah, bro. And also, you know what I was fucked up about this shit too? When he died, bro. This I mean, like, this was part of the reason why I always when like anyone in my life died, bro. Like, if I fucking can have a chance to talk to him, like I'm gonna talk to him before like that's why I make it a priority when I talk, like I get off the phone with someone I care about. I say, I love you. Because like the last time I ever talked to this nigga, bro. I I think I hit this nigga in the face with a rubber band, he fucked his eye. But this nigga was like a really good friend of mine, bro. Like, he was a good, like, beyond the yeah, he was we were on stupid shit, but he he was a good, he rollerbladed. He was he was my good friend. And this nigga, and then the fact that like once he died, I remember my mom, like I told my mom, I was like, mom, like my my friend died. We were like, we were on break, like we were like I was like, we might have to go back early. We were like four hours away at my grandparents, and my mom was like, No, you be alright. And then fucking just didn't say it was like, well, how you crying? I was just like, What the fuck? And then I I I I was by myself, I was like, damn, and then and I was just like, what the fuck, bro? Like this ain't crazy. Absolutely. And I missed my friend's funeral because of that shit.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, that that's the type of situations where they unfortunate situations get you caught. All right, unfortunately, unfortunate situations would definitely cause you to try cannabis for the first time or any type of substance for the first time, bro. That shit is horrible. But I feel it there. It sucked it your first time. You had to get the mid. But that shit was awful, bro.
SPEAKER_00Well, I mean, I thought I was you know what I was high off of? I was high of paranoia. I wasn't even high off the actual eat, I was more high of the adrenaline from me getting caught from it. Because like back then, bro, if you would have got caught with like anything at all, you going to like no, even though I when I when it was my age, bro, if you got caught with a half, you going to jail. Like, you going to jail for a half.
SPEAKER_02The same way when I was coming up, bro. All right, so when I started smoking, so like in hindsight, alright, before we get too lost, you know, I mean, my goals was again, I want to learn more about the good green. I want to get more into that, whether it's medical or recreational. Um, I eventually went to open up multiple different businesses, whether it's the same type or whether it's uh an enterprise type thing where it's just multiple things to help small communities. As in, like, I know y'all got a car dealership, use car dealership, but every car you get from there is ass. How about I open a better one? Shit like that, storage units. I know they 65 over there, but why don't I open them for 50? Etc. etc. So I just want to be an entrepreneur altogether, and I also want to help children, bro. I wanna um I want to help kids like us, kids that got abused, kids that got fucked up. That's always been my main goal, no matter what the fuck I start with now and what I'm doing right now. My end goal is to eventually help foster care children and abuse children that actually uh that actually need it. Um this world, you don't never know. I bet you 50% of the kids you walked in the hallways with were getting beat, either fucked, beat, or neglected when they got home. And that's why they like school so much. So I'm trying to help kids like that. But uh the reason why for but that's the reason for that, obviously. The reason why I want to get into uh the the the weed shit is because you know the first time I smoked weed, you was talking about that. First time I smoked weed, dude. I never felt had relaxed, nigga. I had never I mean You never felt safe. Never never, bro. I had never laughed the way I did because every moment that I had was bad. I'm not saying that weed took all the pain away, but it definitely damn sure made it a little better. Not that it's a coping skill, but it's definitely like a a booster. Like, can I actually get through this? I bet. And then you get through it. So I sat there and I kept smoking and smoking and smoking, and all of a sudden I realized that my anxiety, my social skill, everything's going up, and I just felt great. And don't get me wrong, there's been a period of time where the complete fucking opposite of that happened. My social battery went down, I was lazy, and I didn't want to do anything. And I actually felt more anxiety from weed, but that was my fault because I was sitting here overusing it and everything like that. So I just find weed altogether a very dope fucking a dope, a dope plant, bro. Like you don't walk out and smell roses and feel good. No, you don't you don't fucking smell that shit, but I smell some pot and I feel great. So I just altogether think it's an amazing plant. I think God go God gave us everything with seeds, right? So that I tell you damn well, back in your day and my day, we had some seeds, so it's just a blessing, bro, altogether. And then the reason why the reason why I be trying to I want to incorporate that into my business eventually, but that's not my main goal. Uh, I eventually want to steer away from my uh my weed hobby and just keep it as a hobby and just open something beneficial to everybody. I count from fucking small areas, dude. I come from little towns and multiple. Little towns, dude. So they never have anything. Nobody ever wants to open anything up.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, because no one wants to invent. Like it's just everything's stagnant. But why?
SPEAKER_02Because it's a monopoly board, bro. I look at my county as a monopoly board. There's literally page monopoly. You know what I mean? Bro, if there's nothing there, whatever's added will bust. If you're gonna boom, bro. If you can do it right, you can boom. For example, there's a slider place that just opened up in my area. They never open, bro. Everybody's bitching. When the walks, everybody wants to go there. How are you gonna turn down business like that? Discussing lazy. Lazy. So if I could what I'm trying to do is go into small towns starting with mine and open better shit. Starting with small shit down to your fucking local ice cream truck to your fucking.
SPEAKER_00You said like you like doing bakery and stuff, right?
SPEAKER_02Bake out yeah, I love baking, dude. Cooking, baking, that's my shit. I throw down. I'm trying to open a bakery, whether a mobile bakery, like I'm trying to just do shit different than what people are doing now, not do too much to where it's complicated, but make things smarter, dude. Like I make it unique, and that's all I'm saying.
SPEAKER_00The people don't have like, I think that's a problem.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, a lot of these corporate businesses. I've worked at a lot of jobs, okay? A lot of these corporate businesses don't have actual setups. You walk into you work at Starbucks, it sucks. Your planning, their actual routine of a day is horrible. There's no organization or teamwork. You go to Burger King, Wally World, you go to any of these corporate businesses, and you just ask yourself how they're millionaires, how they're billionaires.
SPEAKER_00It's because people need jobs and people willing to put up with like in proper structures along as it fits their needs.
SPEAKER_02Exactly. And I I think that's really sad. I think things can be I think that a lot of corporate businesses overcomplicate things when things could be a lot more simple and easy that makes your workers a lot happier. So I end like in the end, I I also think about job opportunities, like putting on. I mean, I ain't gonna cap Walmart always say they're hiring, but they never hire.
SPEAKER_00No, they put stimulations and stuff, they don't give it to the proper people. Like I think they're also not having second chances to work. Yeah, also a lot of people too make it where I think especially with the fact that like having a corporate job, like for me, I don't mind working. Working's not the problem. This is how work is set up because I was like, bro, like for me, I want to get my job done. Or usually want to be left alone. I like talking to people. It's not like I'm anti-social, but I was like, bro, like, especially if you ever had to work customer service and had to deal with stupid ass people, it sucks. No, because you know why it fucking sucks. It's not all right, it's not obviously I like talking. Like I have a podcast, but I don't like talking to stupid people, and I'm not saying someone that I'm not saying I'm like I'm more intelligent than someone, I'm talking about like what I mean by stupid, not willing to actually, I'm just like, all right, if you wait on an order and you see that it takes a little bit, nigga, just wait. You be alright, bro. Like it's it's like if at the end of the day, bro, this beyond as that, don't talk to people a certain way. Especially in fact, I'm like, you gotta think about, but like if when you talk to someone, especially if like you like they're like, Oh, you making a sandwich is easy. I'm like, nigga, you you you're paying for a service. Also, like beyond as that, you gotta wait your fucking turn, and also you gotta make it so why that happens. Why? Because of how the corporate business has it set up. Also, people are comfortable disrespecting each other now, too. That's how I was getting too. You are right. That is very true. Yeah, that people are way too comfortable. Yeah, that I think that's just a like life thing, especially nowadays. Back in then, they didn't do that shit.
SPEAKER_02Would you disrespect the person taking too long on your sandwich if it wasn't advertised as fast food? The human brain works a certain way, correct? So if I'm told that it's gonna be fast and it's not fast, what do I start getting irritated? And then I like you said, people are more comfortable being rude, so I let that out nowadays. I think if corporate businesses stop advertising everything is fast and simple, that hey, we actually put fucking time and effort into our shit, sit down and wait, or leave, it would be different. You wouldn't have as many rude customers.
SPEAKER_00No, it's because people oh no, no, I didn't mean to rough T Bell. I would say, you know, I would say this too. It's because corporations make it where they much rather have money and make it where they have no respect for the customer. I mean for the employees, because employees are just workers, they're just fucking pawns in the machine. But also the fact, too, that people know that they can't fight back because if they do, they're gonna lose their fucking job. That's why they do it.
SPEAKER_02Like a lot of jobs you play on intimidation and fear of the fact that the economy sucks and you need this job, so you're not gonna fucking do it.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, yeah, and I just want to have a situation.
SPEAKER_02They do it to their best workers too. They do it to their best workers the most. You'll sit there. I call it the uh the the compliment of of hell, okay? You're such a good worker at your job nowadays that you're the only one that fucking works. Your manager looks at you like you're damn near the assistant manager, but you're still getting paid X amount amount of money, and they're getting paid five dollars over you. You know what I mean? You're doing more work. It's the generational curse of a good worker. If you're a good worker in this generation, you're taking advantage of all modes. Like, especially by a corporate business, bro, they'll sit there and overwork the shit out you all because you actually have an ethic. But the people that don't have a work ethic, they get to sit there and make X amount of money the same as you by doing what we're doing right now, talking?
SPEAKER_00Yeah, I mean, I think that's a good thing.
SPEAKER_02I wish I could fucking make money doing that.
SPEAKER_00No, it's cause I mean a lot of it's nepotism and favoritism, bro. Because a lot of people get positions that don't even fucking deserve. I mean, I know a lot of people like that, I'm not gonna lie. Not neighboring them, but if you listen in, you know who you are. Fuck you, fuck you, bitch. Fuck you. You know who you are, hoe. I I don't give a fuck. I ain't saying your name, bitch, but you know who you are. But anyways, no, no, that's my bad. I have some feelings. Hell yeah, no, I felt that shit because I was like, oh god, my situation. If you knew I'm not saying my shit because I'm not even giving them that energy, but like if anyone knows me in my life, you know why the fuck I'm saying that shit, bro. And like that's why, like, when they y'all hear this, y'all gonna be like, damn, Blake, you wild as hell. I'm like, I don't care. But like, but my my main thing too, moving forward and beyond this, like any job I'm at now, I'm honest with them, bro. I'm like, hey yo, this is who I am, this is how I talk. I respect you, you respect me. I'ma do my job to the best of my ability. This is where I work. Now listen to the stuff. That's the best way to be, yeah. Yeah, that's all I'm saying. I'm telling them this is how I am. If you don't like that shit, fucking fire me and I'm gonna go find another fucking job.
SPEAKER_02Not trying to be on no dickhead shit, but like I realize I realized that young at like 16, 17, again, I've been hustling since I was young. I could get a job, bro. I got a fucking job and I started working. Well, I've been trying. I tried since I was 14 for real, trying to get my workers' permit and all that extra stuff. Like, I I've been wanting to do it. I realized with my first job, something wasn't right when I'm sitting there talking more respectful to my manager than she's talking to me. I don't understand how I look more presentable than the person interviewing me. Bro, I realized that you know what? This is all kind of a facade. The motherfuckers in charge of me are actually lazier and sloppier than me. Oh, yeah, yeah. And that's where my entrepreneurship came from, though, bro. Because I kept getting different jobs and different jobs, and everything kept getting worse. I kept getting less training, I kept getting less instructions on what to do, but getting bitched at more. It's like teach me or shut up. Because why are you gonna yell at me when I do something wrong, but you ain't show me what to do. So time keeps going by, and I'm like, yo, fuck this. Why am I gonna keep asking somebody when I compete? Why am I gonna keep getting paid the minimum to do the most? Bro, you have to step up. I want to explain to everybody that Walmart didn't become Walmart from nothing. Walmart will eventually be gone. But the unfortunate part is I don't see many people of our generation developing the next Walmart.
SPEAKER_00No, if that makes sense. No, people are not innovative. They're not like that no more, bro. And I think a lot of people too make it where they have no self-pride and respect for themselves. So beyond just being content what they can get with any job, they don't see themselves even doing great things because they don't believe in themselves enough. Like a lot of people don't believe. That's what pisses me off, bro. I see so much potential in niggas, but people are so fucking insecure. Like, and I'm not saying I'm not insecure, I'm an insecure motherfucker to the T, bro. I'm not gonna sit here and lie to people, but guess what? I'm working on it, nigga. Work on your fucking issues. Like, goddamn, bro. Like, that's my thing. It's like you really gotta get to a point where I'm like, I am I gonna keep on dealing with this shit. And like, especially like anything in life, even if you have your own business, bro, like you're gonna be to a point like me doing this podcast. Like, I thought it was gonna be easy at first. Like, oh man, I can just talk to them. Like, no, bro, that's not how that shit works. There's work behind it. But if you really want some shit and it's fucking hard, it's worth it, motherfucker. It's worth doing.
SPEAKER_02A lot of people like that though. They don't understand that a lot of people are too fast nowadays, man. They sit there and they don't have the ethic to sit there and uh just uh fucking do it. You got Shalabof didn't say just do it, to just say it. He meant it. You have to just do it. It's life, you only live life once. If you don't do it now, you'll never do it again. It's the biggest problem, bro. You have to just you have to just move forward, bro. You have to like you have to keep pushing to make sure that your goals are complete, or nobody else will do it for you. And I think a lot of people fail to realize that shit. They think that a door is gonna open up in front of them like fucking narnia. Dude, a uh a new world doesn't just exist. You have to make your new world exist.
SPEAKER_00You gotta make it happen for yourself, bro. Because a lot of people don't make it happen for themselves, they think it's just gonna jump in their lap. Nothing just jumps in your lap, bro. And like even good or bad, like people don't realize it takes a lot of energy to not be honest, do anything, make it where it's worthwhile. Because anything that's worthwhile doing, beyond it's being hard, it's gonna take a minute.
SPEAKER_02No yes, nothing will be worthwhile instantly. The amount of people that think a business or an idea or a relationship, a friendship, anything would take off overnight. It doesn't fucking happen. No, they went instant graphication, bro. Instant and you wanna know why? I know this sounds so silly to bring up. What do we do off day? What what's on our phones now? Short term dopamine ass videos, bro. You sit there and you get dopamine after dopamine after dopamine, bro. So that's all everybody expects. You used to be able to sit through life and won for five hours, be happy. If something piss you off, you're mad for an hour or two, and then the next minute you're upset for three hours, and then next thing you know, now everybody's bipolar, bro. Not in a way of like you're actually diagnosed with it, but in the way of everybody is so sporadic with no attention span and no actual effort because of what we consume on a daily basis, whether it's content on our phone, whether it's conversations we have. Got this conversation right here, bro. It's one of the longest conversations back and forth I've ever had with somebody in the past about three years. Because motherfuckers will sit here and say, Hey, I like this car, it's cherry red. Well, why do you like that car? Well, I said, 'cause it's cherry red. Okay, okay.
SPEAKER_00No, they most people don't know how to conversate, bro.
SPEAKER_02Fuck no, they don't, bro. You have to, and you have to know, bro. I I even me, bro, I started just talking to randoms. I don't even know them, just talk. Because what the fuck is everybody scared of, bro? I realize if the more you're embarrassed in life and you're scared of rejection, the less you do. Right now, I I mean shit, I can talk to anybody. If they tell me to dick off, I'm gonna tell them to fuck off. You know what I mean? Match energy, move on. A lot of people don't do that though. They they scared of that shit. And you can't be, bro. You gotta you gotta push forward, put your chin up, and do whatever the fuck you want to do. And I'm not and not anything. You gotta know when to control yourself and when a risk is worth it.
SPEAKER_00Mm-hmm. Yeah, that's all I'm saying, bro. But I'll say this too, on like one final note. How do you think now that you got to the point you want right now? Like, what is the final thing you want to tell the audience? Like, what's the main thing you want to leave with people before we get in this podcast?
SPEAKER_02Just be yourself, be who you just be genuine. No, no, no, no. Be when you were when you were 12 and you had all the hobbies you had, be that person, dude. You were cool. If you were on to something heavy, when you liked that thing that nobody else liked in school, when everybody called you a dweeb, you were actually cool as fuck. Be yourself, don't let the world take you from a child to a miserable grown adult. Stay a child, but be mature. Maturing doesn't mean being grumpy and old, it means growing up and prospering and doing all the things you didn't do as a kid. Whenever you want, have fun and take care of fucking business. Start a business, start something cool, start a non-profit, start a club, a book club. Do something different than the people around you and be confident while doing it. Because if not, you'll never grow and you'll never be a true adult. You'll never sit there and enjoy your life the way that you should. Everybody and everybody deserves to enjoy their life the same way. But you start, you start the enjoyment. Nobody else can. There's no door, there's no door coming open. You start it and you make it happen. So just do it. No shallow labuff shit, but just do it.
SPEAKER_00Nah, and I feel like I for anyone listening right now, beyond, like if you're really going through some, like you really actually going through something. I mean something like that. Talk about it. Yes, talk, talk to someone, even if you don't feel comfortable with your friend or something, like find someone that fucking like if especially if you're like actually, well, first off, anyone listening to this podcast is gonna be over 18. If you're a grown-ass adult, listen to this shit, go fucking find help. Truly, go get help, bro. There's nothing wrong with that. Because you sometimes you don't have all the answers, your friend's not gonna have all the answers, bro.
SPEAKER_02And get better, yeah. Not just not for your friend, not for your mom, not for your friends.
SPEAKER_00For you for you, for you. That's what I'm saying. It's not selfish, bro. You're selfish for not getting fucking help.
SPEAKER_02If yeah, if you don't think about yourself, bro, before anybody else, nobody's gonna think about you first. Your homie, your girlfriend, your husband, your wife, your boyfriend, whatever the fuck you want to call a person to you, they're not going to change or make you.
SPEAKER_00You have to do it, bruh. And I'll say on this one last thing anyone that's having a bad day, that's been listening to this. I hope your day got better. I hope that everything that you're going through right now, because it's not gonna change just by listening or advice, it's gonna be by you.
SPEAKER_02And realizing that other people are going through something similar or worse, and that they're making it through, and so can you. Don't take somebody else's situation as but I've been through, but I've been take it as oh, I haven't been through something as bad as that, and be lucky and take that into consideration and be blessed, bruh. Just be blessed to be where you're at right now and not somewhere far worse.
SPEAKER_00And I'm about to say, bruh, this is ain't nothing but a vibe. Y'all have a really good rest of y'all's day. I appreciate y'all having me on.